Crazy Crying Church Lady


Tonight I went to church to say goodbye to our church family.  As I sat in worship I was completely overwhelmed by memories of how completely we had been cared for and loved by this community.  I sat in the back and prayed over many heads who I know had prayed for us, brought us meals, visited us in the hospital, loved our children and loved me inspite of my brokenness.  I am completely overwhelmed by the thought of leaving this amazing community behind and starting again in a new place and making new friends. 

As I sobbed in my seat during the music in anticipation of being prayed over by this community our worship leader said, “Whatever you have going on, God’s going to take care of you.”  Here is the beautiful thing about being a part of the body of Christ.  The sweet woman who visits each of our children each Sunday and kisses their forehead, that was Jesus.  Those people who made us meals when my husband was hospitalized, that was Jesus.  Those friends who listened to me vent my negativity until I could get through it, that was Jesus.  The beautiful people who sit with us each week for dinner and help us with our children with no judgement of their behavior, that was Jesus.  My coworkers who encourage my crazy ideas and put up with my “force of nature” personality, that was Jesus. 

So as I mourn the loss of these vessels as we prepare to move this week I am also overwhelmed by the Jesus that awaits us in our new home and I look forward to being a vessel for a new friend.  Be kind to one another.  Be a vessel.  Be a community builder.  Be Jesus in your community. 

John 13:34
“A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another.

6 thoughts on “Crazy Crying Church Lady

  1. This brought tears to my eyes. I’m touched, because like you, I’m also preparing to say “goodbye.” We are preparing to move our family away from everything we know and the all the people we love. I know how hard it is. I will pray for you. I will pray Jesus surrounds you with love and grace wherever He plants you. I will pray He holds you on those nights when you miss your church so badly that your guts ache. I will pray that He will replace your longing for familiar faces with a longing to reach out to new people- people who need Jesus and can see Him in you. May God bless you on your journey and surround you with grace.

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  2. As we prepare to leave our house tonight and move to our new one, I’m missing you my friend. I’m excited and nervous, and impatient to be done. I know you can relate. Matt and I both love all the Gabbards very much.


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