We are in the middle of a huge transition in our lives. We are all getting new jobs, moving out of state and in many ways starting over. The adventurer in me is doing a happy dance but the control freak in me is throwing a pity party. Selling and buying a home in two different states is about the craziest thing ever. Single parenting 3 kids 4 and under for 3 weeks is not for the faint of heart. Going through a medical emergency with a family pet is exhausting and heartbreaking.
I’m finding that the craziness of our life right now is robbing me of my happiness and overshadowing the possibilities of this move. God has literally rolled out a red carpet for this to happen. He has provided a way for our family to move closer to our extended family. He provided a buyer for our home who were living with family across the street from our house waiting for a home in the neighborhood to go on the market. He provided us with a home to move into that is more than we ever thought we would have. He’s given us amazing framily that have kept us afloat in the last couple of weeks while the kids and I have been living apart from my husband as he starts his new job. They have literally picked nights to come over and help with dinner and baths and adult conversation.
We have so much to be grateful for and yet I’m struggling to get my happy. What if our new neighbors become our best friends? What if our new church has the perfect ministry for us to get involved in? What if my true calling awaits there? How sweet to get to hug my parents any time I want? For my kids to get to know their great grandma? For them to create amazing memories with my in-laws? What if God has a special plan for our little crazy family there?
I guess that’s the difference betweem happiness and joy. The craziness of transition may take my happy but I’m protecting my joy.
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope.